Hey lovies,
I'm pretty sure you've noticed already that I've been posting next to no updates this month. I've been working on something and I want to apologize for not being able to make much update for the rest of the month either.
It's been quite difficult this year. I had to give up on my dream for a certain reason, had to give up on a lot of hopes and plans. It's crushing inside but I'm still going to try to keep up my writing for that little bit of satisfaction. I've realized sugarcoating anything or lying doesn't do much, so I'm not going to go ahead and say that I'm only doing this for the readers or as a substitute for those abandoned dreams, but I'm doing this for myself, my own bit of break from the pain. To realize that I'm an empty shell now without the goal I had headed for whilst going through such a difficult time is indescribably daunting. I'm headed toward someone else's goal which is too unrealistic and painful, but rather than feeling the aching void inside, it's better to ignore the torture through something before ultimately being dawned upon by the failure.
I may or may not upload this month, I'm not really sure how much I can do but if you do see an update, please do read it and do comment.
Thank you. I truly do appreciate the reads and readers and your comments. Also, thank you for the 10k reads on vkook beautiful and the 1k on namjin moonmaze.
see you guys soon.
