thủy

2024 wishes: 
          Update NCT’s Baby Boy| 24th member~ Lai Yu-Hun Book Two
          (Pretty please, blink blink blink blinkety blink blink blink) 

It’s been a year T-T

besides deaths and my health, i have been able to check off some of my goals over the past few months. i recently got my driving/motorbike licenses after waiting for TWO years. i’m quite proud of myself bc i had such a huge fear of driving and failing, but i pushed the fear aside and was able to obtain my licenses. it was a bittersweet moment as i felt like i was no longer a little child… strange i know. also, i’ve been messaging and seeing an individual for the past few months, and i haven’t felt this type of enjoyment and butterflies in so long. i have talked about you all to them, and how i think i have the sweetest and most caring readers. seriously, they’re the kindest soul ever with the biggest heart. they have the cutest dimple smile i’ve come across. whenever i’m feeling any negativity, they know how to comfort me and make me feel warm (like your comments on my chapters :). we have the deepest discussions about butterflies and aviation (let me stop before i bore you). genuinely, i’m doing okay so please don’t worry about me. although you can’t worry about me, i can worry about all of you as i have a special place in my heart for each and everyone of you. i hope you all have been doing well and enjoying life. i just wanted to check in with all of you as it’s been a while. anyways, i love you all dearly and wish you all an abundance of happiness <3
          
          -thủy <3 
          
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life update: i’ve been slowly getting better as each day passes, but i really miss you all so dearly. i recently went to the hospital for my check ups and labs, and i’m adjusting well to my medications and health issues. i’m so appreciative to have a phenomenal medical team helping me live my life to fullest even though tomorrow’s not guaranteed. i still have days where i feel nauseated and barely have any strength to do basic tasks, but i always try my best to find some positivities to help keep me motivated. at my recent hospital stay, i received some great news regarding my a1c and how well i’m coping with my disease. i have been able to lower my a1c, which means my body is slowly handling insulin properly… it’s a struggle. even though there isn’t a cure or medical practice that can take diabetes away, i’m just happy i’m gradually adjusting to my new life. i understand with this disease comes unexpected deaths and disadvantages. therefore, i’m trying not to think about those things as i live everyday as if it’s my last. you may think it’s a dramatic phrase; however, when you’re living in the reality of it, it isn’t dramatic more like frightening. of course, i fear i may not wake up tomorrow morning (top fear). you can’t prevent certain events from occurring :( you have to live your life like everyone else except yours has a timer. 
          
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everyday is a challenge and exhausting, but you must not give up even when life gets challenging. when this all first started, i felt heartbroken a bit because i knew that i needed to take a break from what i love which is writing. i just wish that maybe if i was strong enough then i could’ve managed both my health and writing, but i wasn’t and i realized that real quick. i’m deeply sorry for not being upfront and telling you all what was wrong, or why i had to take a hiatus from my books. i hope in the near future i can get back to writing and interacting with you all weekly. i genuinely miss all of you and the interactions we have. only the future can tell what will happen. i promise i’ll try my best to take care of myself and get well for all of you and myself. in the meantime, i’ve been trying to find ways to cope with my new life and health conditions, and i found out that baking and creating food for others has been what makes me happy and is therapeutic for my soul. i don’t know why but i feel an immense amount of happiness when i see others enjoying my food. i also was brave enough to start a recipe page on social media, showing and listing my baked treats as it’s been a distraction and a source of joy. to be honest, i haven’t felt this type of joy in a while, so i’m trying my hardest to hold onto this precious time of my life. anyways, enough about me, i wish you all an abundance of health and love. please don’t hesitate to message me if you need to talk or just need someone to listen to you. i’m here for all of you. make sure to eat and rest up, my love. i love all of you to pieces.
          
          ~thủy <33
          
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life update: hihi :( it’s been a while since i last spoke or checked up on you all. i hope everyone’s been well and are taking care of themselves. never forget that i’m always going to be here for each and every one of you. i’m sorry i’ve been gone for a while. i recently got discharged from the hospital due to abdominal pain and other health issues, so i’m trying to take my medication and eat well to build up my strength again. i’m trying my best to take each day on one at a time, but sometimes it feels like a struggle to even get out of bed… i’m trying though. i have mentally and physically been struggling with my health in general. my health is one of the biggest reasons why i have gone on a hiatus for this long. i think it’s only fair for me to be honest and vulnerable with you all, because i consider each and every one of you a friend and apart of my family. back in july, i felt unwell and felt like something was off with my health. i went to the hospital to get checked up and that’s when i found out what was wrong with me. later that day, i was diagnosed with type ii diabetes (juvenile), which means that my body or my organs can’t process and break down glucose and insulin. in other words, my body doesn’t handle sugar, carbs, or certain glucose products well. no, you don’t have to be obese to get diabetes. for me, i was at a healthy weight when i got diagnosed it was just that i developed the disease due to genetics and my certain lifestyle. it’s been difficult these past eight months ngl. however, i’m on a few medication and glucose test that have been helping me and keeping my body strong. i visit the hospital frequently for check ups and labs. 
          
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THUY MY CHILD IM SORRY IVE BEEN GONE FOR SO LONG HOW ARE YOU I HOPE YOURE OK USJDODBSOSHSO
          KSHSISBSISHEUEHDIDBSUWPANS-

i’m sorry that my writing made a few of you upset or if my grammar was off. i promise, i’ll work on improving my literature and grammar skills for future references. third, i know my books aren’t perfect or well-written. i didn’t create my works to be perfect or a beautiful piece of literature. i created and published these books as a stress reliever and to express my creativity in various forms. i also made the books for individuals who needed a distraction from the outside world. i never meant for my books to be perceived the way that some of you have perceived them. please don’t forget that i’m not a professional author. i’m a sixteen year old, school student who is trying to express their creativity while interacting with others. i never meant to cause “harm” or to upset any of you with my works, so i deeply apologize from my heart if i’ve done something wrong. like i said earlier, i hope you all don’t take my words differently as i’m trying explain my perspective on things. i used to be so excited to open the app and to read comments and interact with my readers, but nowadays i’m a bit hesitant to even click on the app to read the comments because i’m afraid i’ve upset someone or there’s something wrong. however, i’m working on accepting that you can’t please everyone and that’s okay. anyways, i wanted to make this statement apologizing and clearing up any confusion that you all might’ve had. i hope we can all move forward and grow together, and as always please take care of yourself until next time. thank you for taking time out of your night/day to read this message. 
          
          -thủy 
          
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a after thinking and viewing some recent comments, i have finally decided to speak about some issues regarding a few of my earlier works. before i continue any further, please don’t take any of my words out of context or think that i’m trying to be disrespectful or impolite. i simply want to state my perspective on a few things regarding comments, messages, and my books. for the past few weeks, i have received messages and comments stating how my ocs’ are unrealistic, my writing isn’t up to part, and how my books aren’t the best. first off, i want to say that i didn’t mean to make yu-yu or dandan seem perfect. i created them from creativity and imagination wanting others to simply enjoy them even if they aren’t realistically described. however, i sincerely apologize if it seemed like my books and characters were unrealistic. i didn’t mean to upset you all with how unrealistic my books may seem to some of you. second, my writing has always been on of my biggest insecurities due to the fact that english isn’t my first language nor a language that i’m too comfortable speaking or writing in. therefore, i was very much hesitant to put out my works and to venture out with my english through the usage of my books. i knew that i would receive a few comments regarding my english and writing skills. however, i didn’t expect to receive messages that weren’t too kind or polite that discussed my english and literature skills. like i’ve said before, i enjoy constructive criticism and love hearing feedback, but messaging and commenting about someone’s language and writing skills isn’t constructive criticism… it’s simply hurtful and unpleasant.
          
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xin cháo. omg!!! thank you so much for 211k views on yu-yu’s book. it means the world to me that so many of you lovely humans got to interact and enjoy bits and pieces of the book. it truly makes my day when i read your comments and lovely messages. you know, i published the book thinking that nobody would ever really read my horrible and barely understandable chapters, but you all proved me wrong each week with your comments and words of encouragement. seriously, i’m so thankful for every single one of you. if it weren’t for readers such as yourself, then i wouldn’t even have a platform to post my writings or to express my creativity. i’m beyond blessed to have some of the most precious souls as my readers, friends, and supporters. you all entered into my life about a year ago, and i don’t regret a single bit of meeting and interacting with you all. every single one of you has a special place in my heart and that will never change. thank you for saving me and helping me mentally and physically each week without even knowing it. last year and this year have been extremely difficult, but the book and interacting with you all helped me mentally in ways that i can’t thank you all enough for. i owe you all the biggest hug and thank you. i wouldn’t be here if it weren’t for you all. please don’t forget, i’ll always love every single one of you until my last breath. nothing will ever change my love and open heart for any of you. once again, thank you from the bottom of my heart for everything. i wish you all a wonderful and safe 2021. hopefully, we’ll see each other (virtually) soon. until then, take care of yourselves, loves. sending you warmth and a bundle of love. 
          
          -thủy