Y'know, I really am considering leaving wattpad. i
I know I say that a lot, but I'm serious this time. I won't take down my books, but I'm still considering leaving. I get that a lot of people like my stories and somewhat like me as a person but, y'know, its really hard to do this with all the hate and everything I'm going through. I have a friend ignoring me, right now I'm going through a dark thought phase and I'm too busy to post anything, yet people still pressure me to do this!
People always say that I'm loved, people always say they care. The only people that I believe that's true is my family and friends who went to my school last year, @PanicAtTheFallOutFandom, @natsudreemurr, @littlepinkmonster7, @ramastar123, I'm talking to you. @KaraTheGamer is one person as well. And that's basically the only people I know care. I'm not saying a lot of other people care but, the people I mentioned before, its not that I know them better, I just kinda trust them more. I don't mean to offend anyone I didn't mention.
Also, I'm going through what seems to be a dark thought phase. So when people talk about how they have 1k followers or 1k readers it makes more dark thoughts swim into my head because I know I'm never gonna get there. Never. And I know that for a fact. My writing sucks, me as a person sucks and I'm always looking at the dark side. So, to all my followers, I would recommend unfollowing me. I'm a lost cause, so I wouldn't bother trying to cheer me up.
Last but not least, I just want to say, so far, thank all of my followers for the support you've given me. I really appreciate it. You've given me the support to keep moving forward, but someday I need to stop trying to make things better and settle for what I have now. I knew this day would come. This is kind of like my last goodbye. Unless, you guys can convince me otherwise but, I doubt that. So, I guess I'll see you.