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it's been so long since I've opened this app, hows everyone doing <33

Should I delete this account? I want to take time to focus on myself and from social media, ever since I started getting addicted to all these apps, my mental health went down, messed up my sleeping schedule, made me sleep-driven, lost confidence in self and all, I really want to dedicate this time to fixing myself but I'm not sure how to, downloading discord, wattpad , instagram, tiktok, and all was one of the best decisions I've made but in reality, it's on of the worst too. lmk what you all think, or should I just log out of this account? <3

5:13am, have2 get ready for school at 6:50, mf I can't even fall asleep send help

should I continue the sakuatsu book? I got some really good and suspenseful ideas but I haven't been getting the motivation lately

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          I want to kill myself so fucking badly, I literally don't know how I'm managing, all I want is to  lay down in bed with someone, hugging me, telling me everything is going to be okay, I'm so fucking miserable, I hate my life so much, I hate myself so much, I never wanted to leave this household as this much, everyone fucks me up here, i'm literally crying so hard, I'm not even allowed to go to my fucking room now, the only place where I feel like I can be myself, like I legit told them, I hate socializing with them, how everytime I try to and come out, they just anger me, ffs not even one person understands me, and i hate, I hate being compared to other people so fucking much, so much, like I can't even compare how much I do, and he wants to come and be like "You're friend back in our hometown would clean, cook, and take care of the house at 11, while look at you, over the age of 11, is a girl, and still can't do the minuemum of what she does" like is it fucking hard to understand I'm my own person, is it hard to understand i'm not her, the amount of sexism I get from them, they make me hate being a female to an intense amount of extent, I'm so freaking sorry to whoever read this, i just had to dump it down, can't keep holding it

i hate my family so fucking much, I legit have 0 freedom, fucking embarrassing crying in front of them, literally yelling at me

it's freaking 2:22 and i have to wake up at 5 to get ready for school send help

so.. school starts on monday, summer break is over
          wow, it went by so fast, I hope all of you enjoyed your summer break and I wish you all the best of luck in school<3

I've been out of wattpad for too long, I'll try updating the sakuatsu book as soon as possible <22

so now I can't even use MY pc without asking my dad for permission cause apparently "all I do is stay in my room and whenever I'm in it, all I do is either game on the computer or sleep, and apparently, I need to interact with my family more and not be such an antisocial" imfao