tylerflame03

Not sleeping is fun, the only problem is there is nobody to talk to. For some reason I don't even feel like talking to my girlfriend. Not sleeping and not eating makes me grumpy

So bored. My girlfriend and my best friend have both gone to bed and I didn't want to fight a centaur. YouTube froze and nobody is online.

I don't know if any of you guys knew but I recently fucked up my leg. I went into a freeze on Saturday and beat myself with a burning metal rod. All day Saturday I was limping. Even Sunday I was limping and I'm trying to recover. I just don't have time to be in pain and recover so at 10 I have to go do a mowing job.

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          If you didn't notice I left out two letter 
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I want to talk to someone but at the Same time I want to be alone 

          It is 1 am and I feel like shit. I can't sleep because I keep thinking that the kid who committed suicide should have been me. I knew everyone in dexter way to well and it's sad to see one kill themselves. I feel like I will be next.

I am trying to be creative. I have some knives, lighters, candles, and enough sugar to kill "a bear". There is only one person who gets that reference. Sally. Found out today an old friend committed suicide and I can't figure out who it was. I thought to myself "it could have been me, it should have been me" 

I need your guys help, should I choose religion or the happiness of the one I  love?

Screw all of this! I'm done with everyone and everything! If you want to try text me but who know I may just ignore you, that's all I'm good at.

Went into a freeze. Had a small panic attack. Haven't slept in a few days. The freeze and panic attack is for one reason and the no sleep is another. Who ever is reading this please help.