4 of you promised me on December 13, 2015 that you'd be back after 18 months...you broke that promise as it has been 5 years, 1,800+ days but I'm still here waiting for you. My love, Zack, I hope you know that even though 4 are in the band there is 5 in my heart, forever and always. You all needed it, you all deserved it but I also deserve a goodbye or a return. you cant leave me and the millions of other fans crying every night waiting for you to tell us something, anything at all. I do wish the bike was heavier, i really do. 

Niall, your laugh is the medicine to all my problems. You've taught me to enjoy life to the fullest. You've made me survive some of the worst days of my life .

Zayn, your bravery is what keeps me going. You've taught me that its ok to take a break. That mental health should be a priority and ppl will judge you no matter what so do what's best for you.

Liam, your sensibleness is keeping me in line. You show me that use common sense but don't forget to have fun in the midst of it. Liam the only reason I'm surviving this hiatus is because of the endless content you provide us with.

Louis, I don't know where to begin. You're the strongest person I know. The cards you've been dealt with in life are/were horrible. I, myself would've never survived it all. But you did, and still had your sunshine smile at the end of it and that showed me not to give up that we will get thru anything and everything. 

Harry, your confidence is something I'm striving for. After, all the shit you've been thru you still tpwk. you still remained humble. You've taught me to be myself ppl/society will always judge you no matter what so do you, be you.

One Direction has been there for me every single day. They were terrible terrible dancers but they were the boyband of my time for which I'm honored. They may have only been together for 4 years, 8 months, 1 day and 8 minutes but they have changed my life forever.

I love you and I'm waiting, always will be🥺🤍