Jane doe

might update might not 
          xoxo,
          gossip girl

there are 4 chapters of my book out so far check them out if you haven't please i would like some feedback on my writing thank you 
          
          tpwk 
                  love,
                            A

The worst part about losing a friend is that you can feel them slipping through your fingers and their is nothing you can do to stop it 

I think the reason I stay up so late at night is because I like to be by myself every once and a while. I used to be so scared of being alone. But now there is this sense of comfort in it like when I am by my self my music and my books I am in my own world where no one can interrupt it. And I’m truly happy. But also sometimes I can just imagine time stopping and just being by myself like it just would feel so nice because when everyone is awake I feel like everyone is going so fast so when I’m the only one awake I feel that I have this sense of that it is my time and I’m doing it on my own so I don’t feel like I am going in slow motion anymore

Damn I miss her I don’t want to but I do 

I love how people are still responding to my niall comment it’s so cute  I love everyone on here y’all so cute 

So umm I’m kinda freaking out about the fact that Harry styles has or might have made a recording of him reading Louis the fish and if you don’t know what that means it’s a bunch off larrie shit and I’m a larrie so I’m kinda sorta like really excited 

You know I had someone once I spent the night at her house and I already kissed her but it was platonic right.
          But when I was at her house it was me her and her niece and me and her niece were messing around cus she is like this adorable little four year old but I look into the girls eyes and we had a moment like people say in the books and if felt like it was only me and her in the world and I could have kissed her I really could have but because me exes damaged me so badly I stopped my self because I knew it wouldn’t have had been platonic it would have been romantic and that is terrifying because idk if I can survive another heart break yk but I will have to wait in see if she comes back cus we stopped talking during quarantine :(  :( 

I have this problem with the fact that I don’t like to get attached 
          Because every time I do I get hurt 
          But when I don’t get attached I seem distant and like I don’t love the person 
          It’s not that I don’t love them I love them with all my heart I am just refusing to  acknowledge it cus I don’t want to get hurt but I know one day I will break I just have to fake it till I make it 
          -A 

I wonder what it’s like to have someone fall for you. I mean really in love with you. Not because they think your attractive, but be consumed with every little piece of you. The way you talk, laugh, exist.