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I never should have join this fandom. 
          	I should've sticked with my first love. 
          	Why didn't I do it? 
          	I regret it now, a lot, it's really affecting me. 
          	They don't love me like they love them. 
          	I'm never the 1st choice and never will be. 
          	
          	I don't like to talk, because I know they will see it, and probably think of me as a low life, just because I want to change. 
          	I regret it, real bad. 
          	
          	I just want them to forget about me and let me restart everything from the beginning, wished I never was in contact with them. 
          	
          	I don't know why I get them.
          	I'm just trying my best. To please other people but they're always there, it's tearing me apart. 
          	
          	I hope I can restart everything ❤️‍
          	
          	(Definitely going to delete that later,  that's just depressing )