keya (kay-yuh) !!

Happy birthday dumpling !! I don't know if you remember me  it's been a hot minute since we last talked. I couldn't reach you on WhatsApp cause for some reason when I redownloaded the app, my messages disappeared. But hehe I'm hoping that we can talk soon, also hoping you see this message. I love you and keep safe!! 

its my birthday !!

put someone in a chokehold today so thats good

hi guys
          hows it going

WE CAN LIKE COMMENTS NOW NO WAY
          OMGOMGOMGOMG I-

my friends are hanging out without me again

here is a post from over a year ago about him:
          
          November 11th 2021:
          "umumum heres the update
          ITS A LOT
          first, i was waiting near the stairs for the bell to ring after band so i can go to to my next class AND I WAS SO CLOSE TO JOSH - not his real name - THAT I COULD SEE HIS FRECKLES
          I DIDNT EVEN KNOW HE HAD FRECKLES
          AND IT WAS AWKWARD BC I WANTED TO TALK TO HIM AND EITHER HE WANTED TO TALK TO ME TOO OR HE WANTED TO GO TO HIS FRIENDS BC HE WAS LOOKING AROUND A LOT. ANYWAYS SO THE BELL RINGS AND WE GO DOWN THE STAIRS AT THE SAME TIME AND SAME SPEED SO WE ARE LIKE RIGHT NEXT TO EACH OTHER BUT HE HAD TO GO THE OPPOSITE DIRECTION 
          
          AND THEN IN STUDY HALL HE WENT TO THE LIBRARY SO I WENT TO THE LIBRARY AN I SAT ON A TABLE RIGHT NEXT TO HIM AND HIS FRIENDS BUT IT WASNT PLANNED BC I SAT DOWN FIRST AND JOSH LITERALLY PICKED THAT TABLE
          AND A LITTLE WHILE LATER I LOOKED AT HIM AND LOOKED DOWN AND SAW OUT OF THE CORNER OF MY EYE HE LOOKED AT ME FOR A SEC OR TWO AND WENT BACK TO WHATEVER HE WAS DOING AND I SNUCK LOOKS AT HIM THROUGHOUT. THEN HE LOOKED AT THE AQUARIUM SO I LOOKED AT HIM A LOT MORE BC HE WAD FOCUSED ON THE FISH AND THE BELL RANG AND I WALKED BEHIND HIM SO AHHHHH THATS WHAT HAPPENED"
          
          
          
          guys I really fxcking miss this

i just realized that it has been one year and one week since I talked to my crush for the first time
          
          I wonder how I would have reacted if someone told me that this is how it'll end up
          we had a good run and now its just sore

i don't see my therapist for a few days and i really need to tlak to someone and the helplines aren't working on my phone so I'm turning to you guys again
          i was doing my usual night routine and i picked up my gua sha and it fell on the ground and broke and this is the second time this happened so this is a new one which is only a few months old and i just had a mental breakdown because i was so scared of how my parents will react and they'd think i can't be trusted with anything and after i picked up all the pieces i could find i went to tell my mom but i broke down before i even got to tell her and now i don't have a gua sha
          now i don't know if i started sobbing because of a trauma thing (because i hate crying) or if its because im a little bltch and i don't even know why i started crying because i feel like I'm wasting money now cuz its the second time i broke a gua sha

so apparently dreams are just versions of you in different universes-
          good luck defeating ghostface, other universe me