unfortunatelyrrrrr

I don’t know what’s wrong with me or why I self-sabotage everything good in my life I hate myself so bad for it I don’t know why I’m like this and nothing helps I don’t know what to do anymore except for isolating myself from people because otherwise I’m just going to be stupid and f*ck everything up like I always do. I love you so much and that’s why I’m doing this I hope someday you understand that 

I’ll change myself for the better I swear. I really want to talk to you I miss you so much already but I can’t because you deserve better and not a horrible b*tch like me in your life. Please I swear I don’t want this I want to talk to you forever but I’m just doing what’s best for you. You said yourself you don’t deserve this and you’re right and that’s exactly why I can’t be in your life rn because I’m just going to ruin everything even more

I’m not a good person you’re better off without me and you know this I’m doing you a favor. I love you and I always will just please forget about me and live a good life. You’re right you don’t deserve this. You deserve better and that’s not me I’m a stupid horrible person and you just need to forget me okay? I love you I’ll do everything I can do change myself for the better and I hope someday we can talk again and I won’t be this way