im so sorry i wish i didnt just leave you and everyone else. i dont know how you felt or if you didnt feel anything at all, but im sorry. two years ago was the worst time of my life and i felt like anything i associated with it would make me slip up and ruin everything i worked on mentally. this is no excuse but i miss you and im sorry i havent been able to talk to you. you wont see this but i wanted you to know that.