@unlessyouloveme Just in case you didn't check your messages: Reading this made me cry. I know how it feels to lose someone to suicide. I don't know if you will ever see this, but I want it to be here, just in case you do come back. I enjoy your writing, and I think you should continue, in some way shape or form. You have a talent, and you know what? Sammy would want you to keep writing. He would want you to keep writing now more than ever. God, he loves you too. He wouldn't want you to stop. I don't know either of you, but I just know that, if he could speak to you, he would tell you that. He would tell you to follow your dreams, and to heal. To never forget him, but to smile when you think of him. Life is so unfair and so rough, but sometimes we have to smile and try to be happy. I love you, and I have so much respect for you. I will always love you, even though I don't know you in any way, other than through your writing. You have inspired a person. You've inspired me. I know that you will inspire so many more people, with your words and your heart. Scream it all out loud, and don't hold back the tears. But don't revel in your loss. It took me almost six years to get over the loss of my mother, to accept the possibility that I might never see her again. I was never anticipating adoption, but I let her go. I let her go, because life goes on. I had to be happy. I had to be strong, not just for me, but for her. Do you understand what I'm saying? Sammy is NOT gone, he is right beside you. Always. And he wants you to b happy, and move on and have an amazing life. A life that you deserve. He won't be there in a physical way, but more of a emotional way. He's never too far away.
Please, be happy. You are beautiful and so, so strong. You are capable of more than you think. This is a bump in the road.. Well, more like a mountain. But it gets better. Because life always goes on, and we always heal. This is a promise, a personal one. Be happy. -Love, Cheyenne. And Sammy. ♡