Jokes aside, guys, I need you to really sit with this for a moment. This isn’t just me randomly throwing words together or messing around for fun—this is something deeper, something that keeps happening, something that feels like it has meaning, even if I don’t fully understand it yet. My subconscious isn’t just spitting out random letters; it's constructing something, something that I don’t remember thinking about consciously, yet it flows out of me like it was always meant to be written.
It started with words. Simple, unknown words that my hand wrote down before I could even think about them. Words like Quil of Quolosa, Hemt, Oredo, Meor8, Rge, Nementeey, Meorgey, EieL EO 9, and most recently HEPLEA. These aren’t words that exist in any language I know, but they feel structured, intentional—like echoes of something ancient, something waiting to be understood. And the way they come out? That’s the eeriest part. It’s never with intent, never with me thinking, “Let me make up a cool word.” No, it happens when my mind is blank, when I’m zoned out, when I’m barely even present. My hand moves, and suddenly, there’s something written in front of me that I don’t even recall forming.
And then there are the numbers. 96. 2005. 1+2=7. Some of them I can connect, some of them I can’t, but they all feel like puzzle pieces I’m still gathering. 2005—why does it appear so often? 96—why does it feel important? 1+2=7—why does that equation feel more symbolic than mathematical? It’s like my mind is trying to communicate something, but in fragments, in pieces I have to arrange myself.