hello clancy

It’s 1am and I wanna make y’all cry…
          
          https://www.wattpad.com/story/392233087?utm_source=ios&utm_medium=link&utm_content=story_info&wp_page=story_details&wp_uname=unopened-windows

Frat Boy is currently #1 in the joshler tag omgggg I love y’all so much 

In case you wanna read something new, I published the first part of a new story yesterday called Formidable!! Hope you enjoy <3
          
          https://www.wattpad.com/story/391361010?utm_source=ios&utm_medium=link&utm_content=story_info&wp_page=story_details&wp_uname=unopened-windows

Today is my birthday, can I please get some “I don’t cares” while I eat my Bluey cake? <3

*tw*
          sorry, but I need to vent and I feel like you guys will get it…
          
          I wish more people understood or at least *tried* to understand and have sympathy for those struggling with their mental health. But I also hope those people are never at a point with their own mental health where they think ending it themselves is the only way to stop it. I wouldn’t wish it on my worst enemy.
          
          It’s not selfish. We shouldn’t be told to “just get over it”. Don’t you fucking think we would if it was that simple? We’re alive but we’re drowning and nobody cares.
          
          “Permanent solution to a temporary problem” how long is temporary in your opinion? I’ve been dealing with this shi since I was 9. 15 years. A 9 year old should not want to not be alive anymore because they don’t understand what’s happening with their own brain and I’m tired of being told “you’re too young to be depressed” and “you’re just being lazy”. Do you see the world we currently live in? I’ve never been more uncertain about my future than I am right now. And I can’t even talk to my family about it because they voted for it and I’d be practically disowned by the people I live with because my generation is too soft and apparently mental illness didn’t exist 50 years ago.
          
          I’m not looking for sympathy with this, I’m just so tired

Woke up this morning to a video from my brother of my niece/nephew on the ultrasound screen. As of today they are the size of a double strawberry. And they’re very wiggly. Eeee I’m excited lol

I’ve been working on 2 new stories—as if I need more—and with Glowing 7s being removed, I feel super behind even tho I’m literally the only person putting pressure on myself? lmao fun fun

Sooo…hehe…I didn’t know that if you break the inappropriate image violation more than once, it takes the entire story down. I thought it would just hide the image like it did the first time.
          
          That’s on me.
          
          Glowing 7s is temporarily down for maintenance.

ugh I’m cringed out by my old writing lol mixing past and present tense bro why were there so many reads
          
          but also, Frat Boy is getting attention again and, personally, I love that for her

I passed out from low sugar about a week ago and my tailbone huuurttss
          
          Double book update with Lunatic and Glowing, before I go into work. I hope y’all enjoy