unusedun

Logging off for a while. Unsure when or if I'll be back. Think it will hurt least in the end.
          	
          	Please go, find joy.

salvagingsomething

I hope you are ok, and you are happy. I  really do.

unusedun

@salvagingsomething I missed you. I miss you. I hoped for all of this past year that I could at least talk to you. But I was afraid and confused.
            
             I wouldn't have seen the abuse without you.  I wish I had seen it before all of that time apart happened. I would have realized that my loving you wasn't just my bipolar and that Linda really was gaslighting me. I would be happier now.
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salvagingsomething

“Hurt least in the end” just remember in that  statement, you are only speaking for yourself. 
          
          I guess “Out of sight, out of mind”, is working out for you. 
          
          I wish I could get angry enough to make it stop hurting. I’ve never had that happen before. I have always been able to resent, and I could resent you, but I don’t want to. This hurts, it really hurts, you are just gone. You’ve turned your back and turned away. I have been renounced. 
          
          I have loved you for every single thing that you are, simply and purely and in return.....
          
          I wish that I could turn back time and just have you back, even just for a little while, to the way things were when we talked all night, when we were there for each other.
          
          

unusedun

Logging off for a while. Unsure when or if I'll be back. Think it will hurt least in the end.
          
          Please go, find joy.

salvagingsomething

I didn’t need to see that, and I can’t help but think/know that was on purpose. All it does is hurt. With the same intensity as it did 7 weeks ago. Maybe even more. I will just stop looking.
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salvagingsomething

I don’t think anything is going to make it hurt less. 
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salvagingsomething

Ps... there is an outcome you didn’t write. You really should, a good one. Write it and cherish it. 
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unusedun

Trying to write… but between work and exhaustion…

salvagingsomething

Note..... without the dark, we would never see the stars. 
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salvagingsomething

It will come out when it’s ready to... just need a little spark 
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