You know that feeling,, where it's kind of like you're drowning,,, but you're on land and you're upright but your mind is kind of just upside down? It's like dying but not? And you can feel yourself go cold and you think it's finally the end but then you're up again, repeating the everyday task of life. caring and doing things, when you could just be in bed crying and hoping that you don't make it through the day, and you won't have to deal with the next day. the way it feels to have no hope, and the pills you swallow daily to make you feel like a human being, is it worth it??