You know coming to terms that he just isn't going to give me the attention I ask for unless I physically break down about and even so he'll just slowly stop within a week hurts sucks but you have to overcome your own problems so for the time being I'll just have pull up my big boy pants and suck it up he promised me that he'd never make me felt left out and thats all he does not my fault he's not one for his word, I'm not breaking up with him I'm just not going to express these things to him I'm not going to care especially not Infront of him I'm not wasting anymore tears on him never again if he wants to make me feel unloved and just like a chore then he's won that battle but I can't cry to it anymore I physically can't I'm used to it I love him and I'm going to stay with him but I won't necessarily be happy about I have to wait to see if he's gonna clean up his act even so I don't think I'll break up with him then he says he loves me and I believe to an extent but I'm just done with having to feel like there's a extent to it, I love him and I'm not breaking up with him I guess I'm just gonna stop expressing my full self to him I can't get hurt more then I am