@thewxeldisending yeah, like my coaches thought I could go D1 and like thats impressive, like I won rings, I won awards, I won medals, I had a good mentality, I did good, but I was always the last choice behind the coaches kids and was always put on teams that didnt do anything to help build each other up. Like I loved the sport, it was who I was, I was great at it too, but my coaches consistently tore me down no matter my skill. And like, my town is unforgiving if you leave a sport, so even though I ache to be back out there I know it'll never happen and it like physically hurts sometimes
