NOW
MARCH 7 11:09PM-Don't bother picking me up anymore.i can walk home
I did walk home.All five miles from the bus station, dragging an overstuffed carry-on with a broken wheel in the middle of the night.Nick kept on trying to reach me.Twelve unread message,seven missed calls,and one voice mail.But I ignored them all and kept walking.Reading these back again,I wish I hadn't been so angry at him.i wish I had picked up the phone
Maybe then everything would be different...
Morning light comes through the curtains as I lay curled in bed,listening to nicks voice mail again.
"Karl,are you there?"some laughter in the background,and cracking from the bonfire."Karl, I'm so sorry!I completely spaced but I'm leaving now okay?Just stay there,I should be the in like an hour ok,I feel terrible.Please don't be mad at me.Please Karl answer me,call me back,okay? I LOVE YOU I'll be there soon." If only he listened to me and stayed with his friends.If only he just this once let me be upset instead of always trying to fix things, no one would be blaming me for what happened. I wouldn't be blaming me
I play the voice mail a few more times before I get up and out of bed and start upending drawers, looking for anything that belonged to nick or reminds me of him.I find photos of us,birthday cards movie ticket stubs, paper blossoms,stupid gifts like the stuffed fish that he won at the town fair last summer,as well as every mix CD he made me over the years(who even burns CDs anymore?),and cram them all into a box.
GUYS CAN U GUESS WHATS COMINGGGG????