this week has been so idek so i’m just gonna dump here bc i don’t have anyone to dump to
touching on that subject that’s why im dumping and why my week has been ew
so to provide a little background info, i’m the type of person who can have friends, but only one special friend. now my one special friend, she’s more of an independent person and she has a lot more friends than me, and there’s nothing wrong with that!!! it’s just that lately she’s been hanging out with other people and she’s kinda just left me behind i feel like. oh yeah more info: i’m also the type of friend to just follow u around wherever you go. for example, she sits with like 3 different lunch groups at school. i don’t really care where i sit, so i just follow her around wherever she goes. but lately, ive gotten tired of being the one following my friend around like a lost puppy just so we could interact that day (mind you, we have no classes together and we both get to school late so we don’t really see each other in the morning). I just don’t want my friendships to be so one sided. i remembered the golden rule: treat others how you want to be treated. so i was like why not treat her how she treats me this week just to see how it goes? yeah that was pretty humbling. we didn’t text for 2 days and i haven’t had an in person conversation with her since probably before winter break. cute, right? so love that for me! i told her how i felt through a loooong text message last night, and all i got was an “ill talk to you tomorrow” wowie guess what? she didn’t say anything to me at all today. i don’t know what to do, but like i said before im tired of putting 200% effort into spending time with my friends and not receiving that back. i feel like my friends are more online friends than irl friends. not even friends, just friend. i don’t have any close friends that i text daily, except for her. but, with this going on, we haven’t texted consistently since maybe last weekend. fml why am i like this help me
