— 🫧🤍 ellie

so uhm… wattpad won’t let me update my squid game book… 

I DECORATED MY PHONEEE HEHE

officially working on my squid game book!

NEW THEME IS ACTUALLY EATING!

squid game fanfic or what…?!?

i lowkey wanna get back into anime… WHATTT??? who said that? me, i did… PLS TELL ME OTHER PPL WHO FOLLOW ME LIKE ANIME 

NEW THEME FINALLY 

THE “which was weird..” TREND IN WORD/ BOOK FORM !! 
          
          
          
          “ the words that past from the young girls lips, they almost didn’t seem real.  they rung in her ears momentarily as they stood across from one another.   the pure appalling look on their face was enough to identify the girl had spoke her mind.  she had refused to remain silent in the torment.  she had final spoken up in a loud tone that made it evidentially clear they were fed up… which was weird, because younger her would’ve never had the courage to defend herself the way she had just moments prior. ”
          
          
          
          
          ( i’m not sure if i did this trend on tiktok in word form correctly, but it was fun! ) 

i yearn to write a story that has the perfect speech, a story so well written it develops an emotional connection with the reader.  a story that allows one to connect with the main character, a sensation of  ‘i understand’  a sensation that brings an ache to the readers hearts, that contorts their stomachs with feeling.   i desire to write a book so properly written out, it truly makes a reader wonder more about the character.  their mindset, their theories, their emotions, everything.  a character connection that’s so strong that you can’t help but understand why the character does what they do, or why they act the way they act.   I NEED IT.

..should i even get back into writing? the self doubt in my abilities is CRAZZZYY