Hi random people how's it going, i'm not doing okay, I just wanna die. What about you. Doesn't matter who says what I just wanna die and no one can really change that. Like really what is the point of being alive, I mean like really what for, sometimes we are just a waste of space like does it even matter, it's our lives if we wanna leave than let us, don't try and stop us. It's not like the feeling will go away ever, it would be hard for it to go away, people think that talking about it helps no it doesn't. It never helps because that's how life is. What's the pills gonna do, what's the talking gonna do, what about living what's that gonna do, how is that going to fix any of this when we are just slowly dying everyday. 
Bye, people have fun in the present, because I won't be here, have fun with me not being here, just forget about me, I'm not something to worry about, I'm just a lost cause. :P 
Hey, SOOOOOOOO I've cut three times and have the scars. The scars maybe will faded when I'm older but there here now and probably won't go away for awhile.  I have to hide the scars from my family. I can't show them, it won't end well, what else am I supposed to do, not like I can hide them forever. I'll tell my family sooner or later, or someone else will tell them. It will happen they will get all scared and angry that I hurt myself. Not like I can stop the feeling of wanting to hurt myself, it's not that easy. I wanna hurt myself everyday but can't because if I do my friend will hurt him self.  I wan't to hurt myself so bad, I'm trying to stop myself, I just can't stop myself, I can't put on a fake face everyday when I know I'm on the verge of killing myself or hurting myself, I wanna cry every single second I'm alive. UUUUUUGGGGGGGGGHHHHHHHHH I don't wanna do this anymore, I don't know what to do. Why is life so terrible, why am I terrible at living. Why am I just a terrible person, but I can't change that. Welp bye peeps. :P