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Day 3 part 2 (short) 
          Is it selfish to tell someone that they need sleep and then when they actually take your advice you wish they ignored you so you could talk more? Is that just me? I hope not... God I feel awful, I feel like I'm going to be sick. I'm not well and neither is my mental stability. This is me signing off, have a goodnight everyone, see you all in fucking hell. 

Day 3
          My best friend/wife got a new friend.. She seemed excited, and don't get me wrong I'm happy for her. She finally has someone that can replace me over times.. Which is totally chill I'd replace me too, Solomon promised me if she leaves me that he'd stay, him and TinTin both said that they'd never leave me on my own ever. That made me feel better about this, I don't know how much TinTin will stick with her word but I can only hope that I don't get abandoned by any of them.. If Lizzie Bee sees this. I hope the best for you and your friend. I would never think about coming in between you two, you guys seem to fit like puzzle pieces. I love you forever even if you leave me for her. This is me signing off, be safe and make sure you don't look for new beginnings... 

Day 2 part 2
          We are at the Zoo.. We are supposed to be happy and smiling but I feel like crying.. Solomon followed me today, we talked for a bit, I told my best friend/wife about him, she didn't seem to care much about him sadly. But that doesn't matter, I keep getting yelled at for being on my phone, it's not my fault I have people that actually care enough to talk to me when I'm feeling like garbage, Solomon held my hand earlier I was happy that he still cared about me even when I acted like an asshole. And before anyone asks, Solomon isn't a crush or anything.. It's not like that, don't ruin my friendship, don't ruin my thoughts about Solomon. He is an amazing dude who is just misunderstood.. People are scared of him. Oh well they can't see him anyways.. This is me signing off, I'll talk to you all later. I'll tell Solomon that you said hi. 

Day 2
          Today wasn't really started yet but somethings have went down, like for instance, the day hasn't started basically and I'm force to wake up. I don't feel like doing my assload of topics for today so we just gonna not do it for the hell of it. My head is pounding lots of thoughts are going in and out, when I woke up at 4 I was face to face with a new friend, I like him a lot, he is nice. His name is Solomon, he didn't talk to me but all he did was stand over me, he was basically all bone and a missing eye. He said one word and then disappeared, I hope he comes back for another visit sometime soon. This is me signing off, today will be better. 

Day 1 part 2
          This is just a little update on how I'm feeling. I feel like everything I have chosen in life was wrong, I shouldn't of spoke out about my opinions.. I should have let my dad step on me and make me feel like garbage. Why can't they see I'm human too? If you'd cut me, you'd see all my blood pour out. Then what would you say to the cops, “I wanted to prove that they aren't alive. And made for my problems only”? Is that what you would say? Or would you actually own up instead of being a little bitch about it. This update isn't very hopeful but how do you be hopeful when you have a voice screaming in your ear that you fucked up some where and no one will be able to love you again. I've fallen too deep into a hole and now all I can do is hope I get out before suffocating.. This is me signing off once again... Be safe, this world is big and scary, I don't want what is happening to me to happen to you. 

Day 1
          I want to sleep into a coma you know? Just like, pass away and act like it didn't happen. If I could achieve that then I'd be set for a good life ya know? Hopefully me pouring my heart out for all of you strangers, and friends to see that maybe I won't be taken advantage of. This is me signing off, I'll do this about everyday if I can maybe it'll help, the therapist said so.. If my other post concern you, you can reply to them and ask questions... I'm ready for anything at the moment, everything is just hitting me like a train. Goodbye and have a safe and good day!