vex.

officially reached the matching onesies stage woop woop

im doing it im revamping different and hopefully gonna add some new chapters to it its coming back yall holy shit

im alive
          
          barely
          
          i miss when wattpad was fun and we all made fanfics and were all super soft and cutesy together instead of just eternally depressed and falling deeper into insanity with no real outlet anymore
          
          i miss wattpad in general
          
          tbh thinking about bringing back that PDH fanfic i wrote- the vampire one- jus wanna revamp it a ton- but i like lowkey dreamt about it the other night and the plot was genius and the execution was pretty great too i mean most various x readers have like one chapter where they focus on one person and the next chapter is a different person but this was just realistic as fuck i just never realized how realistic it was cuz i wrote it in middle school- but in high school i had 8 people crushing on me at once and it felt exactly like that fic LMAO and i think itd be therapeutic to start writing it again

changing my username bc v3x_slay is my main user on like everything and this isnt my main wattpad account anymore (hasnt been for years) so im switching my username okay bye

posted this on my main account but i want more people to see this so im posting it here too
          
          Hey everybody! Please keep my partner in your thoughts this week. I'll put a trigger warning for this post here for suicide related topics, so please be mindful reading-on
          
          Thursday, June 20th, after spending a long day hiking trails with my partner, I dropped her off at home and returned to my house. Within thirty minutes of getting home, around 8pm, she was in an ambulance. She wrote my number on her hand before the ambulance came and promised to call me on a hospital phone when she arrived. I didn't know anything until she called about another thirty minutes later, where she explained that she had overdosed. We were on the phone for about four hours, and she felt fine, couldn't wait to get out and go home, and was excited to see me again Saturday when we went to one of our good friends' grad party.
          
          Around 12am that night, she started to get bad symptoms and told me she was going to hang up so she could try to rest, as it was getting harder for her to talk. Before she hung up, she started to cry, apologizing profusely for what she did, and admitting it was stupid. I thought little of it, and told her that she was stupid, but she needs to use this experience as reason to never do it again. Then, she hung up and told me she would call in a few hours. I kept my ringtone up so I would wake up when she called. She never called.
          
          (Continued below)

also pfp change cuz im super proud of this cosplay lmao

no way wattpads getting rid of direct messages i gotta scroll back and screenshot all the criminal activity that happened there when i was 12 wtf

i should change my pfp i took this pic like 2 years ago

got a date planned to take written test for my license hell yeahh  hopefully i pass its been a while since driver's ed but im a decent test-taker so i think i'll do aight :D

"shes got a smile that would make the most senile,
          annoying man bite his tongue
          im not done
          shes got eyes comparable to sunrise
          and it doesnt stop there
          man, i swear
          shes got porcelain skin, of course shes a 10
          and now shes even got her own song
          but movin' on
          shes got the cutest laugh i ever heard
          and we can be on the phone for three hours
          not sayin' one word
          and i would still cherish every moment
          and when i start to build my future, shes the main component
          call it dumb, call it luck, call it love, or whatever you call it but
          everywhere i go i keep her picture in my wallet like here"
          
          cupid's chokehold / breakfast in america by gym class heroes