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changing my username bc v3x_slay is my main user on like everything and this isnt my main wattpad account anymore (hasnt been for years) so im switching my username okay bye

posted this on my main account but i want more people to see this so im posting it here too
          
          Hey everybody! Please keep my partner in your thoughts this week. I'll put a trigger warning for this post here for suicide related topics, so please be mindful reading-on
          
          Thursday, June 20th, after spending a long day hiking trails with my partner, I dropped her off at home and returned to my house. Within thirty minutes of getting home, around 8pm, she was in an ambulance. She wrote my number on her hand before the ambulance came and promised to call me on a hospital phone when she arrived. I didn't know anything until she called about another thirty minutes later, where she explained that she had overdosed. We were on the phone for about four hours, and she felt fine, couldn't wait to get out and go home, and was excited to see me again Saturday when we went to one of our good friends' grad party.
          
          Around 12am that night, she started to get bad symptoms and told me she was going to hang up so she could try to rest, as it was getting harder for her to talk. Before she hung up, she started to cry, apologizing profusely for what she did, and admitting it was stupid. I thought little of it, and told her that she was stupid, but she needs to use this experience as reason to never do it again. Then, she hung up and told me she would call in a few hours. I kept my ringtone up so I would wake up when she called. She never called.
          
          (Continued below)

also pfp change cuz im super proud of this cosplay lmao

no way wattpads getting rid of direct messages i gotta scroll back and screenshot all the criminal activity that happened there when i was 12 wtf

i should change my pfp i took this pic like 2 years ago

i know i havent been active nor the most engaged on here (im sorry i love yall), but i wanted to promote my girlfrend's discord server really quick >:3
          
          Calling all artists!! Have you been looking for that small, art-based community where the sole purpose is just to promote your OWN work AND get positive feedback from others with similar tastes and interests?? LOOK NO FURTHER!!
          
          Here at "Art Stuff" (It's a temporary name, but open to suggestions) we've got it all. Channels separated and tailored to your art forms of interest, admins specialized in subject areas for questions, comments, concerns, or for some positive feedback, and a community of other artists here for the same reason.
          
          Not the best at drawing or painting? That's cool, we've got sections for much other art-related subjects like theatre, music, writing, even film or craft! We don't like to limit ourselves and our creative capabilities, so go wild!!
          
          We are a mostly SFW server with designated NSFW art channels, where we recommend only those 18+ enter. We are a safe space for all, and any hate in or outside the server is not tolerated. Our admins will work to keep this community safe, and are always open for concerns or complaints. Never be scared to speak up!
          
          So, what are you waiting for? Join in on the fun!
          
          https://discord.gg/9WpAxx3Zt7
          
          DISCLAIMER: This server is very much a work in progress, and the owner is very new to creating servers. But, she's excited about it, and has been wanting people to join but has been too nervous to promote it, so I wanted to help her out a bit :> It's a surprise for her tho! :D

got a date planned to take written test for my license hell yeahh  hopefully i pass its been a while since driver's ed but im a decent test-taker so i think i'll do aight :D

"shes got a smile that would make the most senile,
          annoying man bite his tongue
          im not done
          shes got eyes comparable to sunrise
          and it doesnt stop there
          man, i swear
          shes got porcelain skin, of course shes a 10
          and now shes even got her own song
          but movin' on
          shes got the cutest laugh i ever heard
          and we can be on the phone for three hours
          not sayin' one word
          and i would still cherish every moment
          and when i start to build my future, shes the main component
          call it dumb, call it luck, call it love, or whatever you call it but
          everywhere i go i keep her picture in my wallet like here"
          
          cupid's chokehold / breakfast in america by gym class heroes

i saw someone post about their 2020 mutuals SO A SHOUTOUT TO 2020 MUTUALS UHH OLD USER WAS UltimaAur264 AND WHEN I WAS CIS (ewwie) I WENT BY AURORA/AUR IF ANYONE WANTS TO YKNOW GET MY DISCORD OR SMTH AND CATCH UP IM PRETTY CHILL IM 17, AMERICAN, QUEER ASF, AND EMO SO LIKE Y E A – –
          
          anyways please talk to me yall were so so cool i miss what we had

so i sorta kinda travelled across the united states for a week to tour a college i might not even be able to afford to go to and its way cooler here than back home?? like i would MUCH rather be living in the city here than in the farmhouse on the edge of a village probably no bigger than a mile wide but at the same time im 3000 miles away from everybody and i cant wait to fly home tomorrow to hug them all :(