valerie

Ghost B.C's new song is out and it's awesome! : https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=6lyscwuG9zs

As a person literally living in the USA .... Fuck America/ the USA or as i call it the 'Divided States of Embarassment'. Me and my family's water bill just went up over 30 dollars. What the actual fuck? I hate it here but i'm stuck living here because i can't afford to move and the other countries must hate american's *god i hate calling myself that* now because of our stupid f*cking government and our so called president.

My Nana is unwell. We are in the hospital with her. She can't walk and is in a lot of pain. Hopefully she get's better soon.

*sigh* Y'know what sucks? ... when you're lonely af and wish you could have a dog but you know you're too lazy to have one and you hate going outside.

*sigh* i wish i had someone to talk to. like about heavier topics that people tend to avoid. i can't talk about it with my family because my mum hates talking about politics and gets mad if i bring it up and my other family member is a republican and i don't exactly have any irl friends to talk to because i hate socializing so i'm pretty much screwed in that regard.

It's February 1st. Happy 31st Birthday to the love of my life Harry Edward Styles.

I made a mistake. i asked my mum how much i weigh. it's no wonder i have a f*cking kidney stone. i'm apparently alot ... thicker than i thought. so i'm going on a much stricter diet, starting now.

Another Update: i'm feeling much better now. still a bit sore of course and still no stone yet but i'm feeling much better. i'm not hurting so much anymore.

Update: i went to urgent care and then the er and i have a f*cking kidney stone. f*ck my life.

I don't feel well. i woke up with a horrendous pain in my left middle side towards my back. i think i just slept wrong or something but idk. i also feel queasy and i did throw up. if i'm not better by tomorrow i'm going to seek medical attention because this f*cking sucks.