i dont know where to start. life is hard. sometimes i wish i was still a kid, not understanding the bigger picture. staying in my little bubble i call home.  being 20 is not what i was expecting it to be, especially since i fucked up my future because of my past. always wanting to be older than i am: smoking, drinking partying ditching school. getting kicked out of four highschools and graduating meraculously in a continuation school .