Ness

New name, same person haha. Anyways hopefully I can actually finish writing a project for once and not leave them half finished. 

Life is crazy… one moment I think I have everything figured out and the next I get thrown for a crazy loop and question my entire worth as a person and a creator. 
          On another note - I’m trying to actually plot a novel this time so let’s see how it goes O.o

I read fanfic for the first time in years last week. Yeah no as someone who has stopped shipping real people because of the uncomfortableness, real people fanfic is weird (although it wasn’t written poorly). Odd how we mature as people throughout time. 

Props to anyone doing nanowrimo. I attempted it last year and failed. I wanted to do it this year but college full time makes that hard. My nanowrimo is writing 600 word papers every week since August so that’s something...

I had a dream where I kissed Jordan Fisher cause we were acting together and I think this is officially the second time I’ve developed a crush on someone after a dream :)

This is not a cry for help, just a vent. I have been so anxious the past week and it feels like I’m drowning. I feel 1,000 pounds on my shoulders. So much has happened so quickly and my mind can’t keep up. I feel like a failure and a burden but I know it’ll pass... It’s like a gash... sure the deep cut will eventually go away as the skin regrows but it doesn’t prevent it from hurting and getting aggravated when you poke it. 

Want a depressing thought? All of your characters’ stories will die with you if you don’t tell them. 

I’m sad. I had a dream that I was in a relationship and now I’m just... really lonely? Like I know that I have friends and family but I want love you know? Plus the dream guy was like 5-6” taller than me and as a 5’9 woman, that’s how you know it’s a dream 

With this whole Coronavirus quarantine happening, I’m trying to convince my friend to start writing with me but they said no :/

MONTH LONG WRITER’S BLOCK SUCKS