@DollGypsy I found God some time last year. I going to a school I hate and was failing all my courses. I was alone and barely had any friends with me. My friends and I schooled in different cities so I got pretty lonely. A friend of mine who was going through mild depression and even thought about taking his life met God and I noticed a lot of change in him. He was happy all the time and even though he had struggles, none of them could have the best of him.
I on the other hand was still the same, sad with no plan for the future. The only thing I looked forward to was having my number of reads increase on here and have strangers tell me how much they loved my work. But the joy didn't last long.
I remember being in my dorm room once, feeling sad still but mostly empty. All I wanted was to be happy, and then I remembered my friend who was all that.
I asked God if He could make me happy like He did for my friend and I talked to my friend a little and we said a short prayer (the salvation prayer) and then God was with me. I didn't notice any change or any bone shattering feeling but after a couple of days I noticed I wasn't sad anymore, I was always happy and joyful. The loneliness wasn't present anymore since I constantly had God with me.
I'm enjoying His presence. He's my best friend and He listens to all my rambling. He knows all about me and loves me still. I get really good grades at school now and there's constant growth in God .