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                             ⸺          @fknstarboy .ᐟ
            
            you  don't  bother  me ..     'nd  my  reactions?     i  don't  mean  anything  by  them,     you  know  that,     specially  when  it's  something  like  this.     [     knitted  into  a  furrow,     sleek  brows  soon  quirk  at  the  younger's  words,     curiosity  piqued.     ]     but,     jisu  ⸺     what  is  the  point  of  having  a  partner  if  they  cannot  see  you  at  your  worst?     isn't  that  almost  the  whole  point  of  a  relationship ..     having  someone  there  so  you  don't  have  to  deal  with  everything  by  yourself?     [     in  a  fluid,     albeit  soft  motion,     beau's  hand  rests  atop  of  the  males  head,     with  the  pad  of  his  thumb  running  idly  along  the  delicate  skin  of  forehead;     hoping  that  the  notion  is  soothing,     a  weighted  breath  seeps  past  rosy  lips.     ]     i'd ..     like  to  be  let  in.     just  a  little  bit  at  a  time,     if  that  makes  it  easier.

well,     genuinely  it  feels  as  if  you  are ..     always  feels  there's  something  that  i  do  that  bothers  you  one  way  or  another.     i  can't  —-     [     jisu  paused,      lips  pursing  together  as  a  heavy  breath  was  let  out  through  his  nose.     no  body  hated  being  vulnerable  more  than  he  did,     the  idea  of  being  weaker  than  he  already  deemed  himself  to  be  made  his  skin  crawl  with  discomfort;     maybe  even  some  sense  of  shame—embarrassment.     ]     i  can't  always  let  you  into  my  head,     let  you  see  how  much  of  a  mess  i  really  am  if  i  don't  keep  it  all  in  ..     [    tiresome  hues  finally  fluttered  shut,     fingers  curling  into  the  sheets  beneath  them,    grip  tightening  the  more  he  continued  to  speak.     ]     all  i  ever  am  doing  is  tearing  myself  down ..    with  you,     at  least  it  felt  like  i  had  someone  to  build  me  up,    but —-     i  guess  that  is  hard  if  i  don't  let  you  in ..

                             ⸺          @fknstarboy .ᐟ
            
            be  like  what,     hm ..?     i'm  not  trying  to  start  anything  here,     i  just  ⸺     how  am  i ..     i  don't  feel  like  'm  able  to  help.     if  i  don't  get  to  know  anything,     i  mean.     [     it  wasn't  as  if  he  needed  to  know,     per  say;     beau  was  often  able  to  tell  when  the  latter  was  feeling  down,     or  worse  than  usual ..     but  to  not  discuss  it  at  all,     it  felt  like  eventually  everything  would  come  back  around  and  bite  him,     and  not  for  the  better.     after  a  moment,     jisu's  laptop  is  slipped  away  from  where  it  rests,     scooted  instead  to  the  end  of  their  large  bed.     ]     it's  fine  though,     really ..     you  can  keep  creating  them,     just  remember  to  lock  the  laptop,     next  time.     otherwise,     i  can't  promise  i  won't  be  nosy.