Hi I'm vanessa

I am cool but global warming made me hot.
    Netflix, youtube, food, my bed, Perfection.
    Making History.
    I'm on energy-saving mode.
    Success is in my blood.
    Problem solver. Social media fanatic. Passionate travel guru.
    By grace through faith. Beautiful.
    Keeping it simple and living life with zero regrets.
    Be yourself; everyone else is already taken.
    I want a cute, long relationship where everyone will say damn they're still together?
    Just a cupcake looking for a stud muffin.
    Eat...sleep....regret...repeat.
    Someday, there's going to be an updated version of me.
    We live in a society where pizza gets into our house before the police.
    If I delete your number, you're basically deleted from my life.
    One tequila, two tequila, floor.
    Life is short... Smile while you still have teeth.




Who am I? Who am I trying to be?
Not myself, anyone but myself.
Living in  a fantasy to bury the reality,
Making myself the mystery,
A strong facade disguising the misery.
Empty, but beyond the point of emptiness,
Full to brim with fake confidence,
A guard that will never be broken,
Because I broke a long time ago.
I'm hurting but don't tell anyone.
No one needs to know.
Don't show or you've failed.
Always okay, always fine, always on show.
The show must go on.
It will never stop.
The show must not go on,
But I know it will.
I give up. I give up giving up.
I am lost.
I don't need to be saved,
I need to be found.