This is becoming my own journal. This little bit of board on my page, it is going to become my little bubble of privacy...at least until I remember that this goes out to some people's' pages as well. Well, as long as none of the people that I actually know read these I should be fine haha... I have felt sad for a very long time now and even my vitamins that I take aren't exactly helping me that much anymore. The people that I usually go to that know more about myself than anyone aren't exactly around anymore, but that is my fault in a way. I push them away- some on purpose some on accident but it either causes me happiness or absolute pain. Right now, I only have friends here and in real life that I talk to more than actual people I've known for a while, and that is only two people. One that might be reading this is one I actually talk to a lot on here and the other...well she doesn't have an account that she uses (thank god) but they are actually helping me out some. I owe them so many thank yous' that they don't even know, well this won't be out in the open aha but if someone I do know out side here and if they are or were a friend- that is reading this and thinks I am crazy, well, what can I tell you? I've always been like this.