I'm falling in that abyss where I feel like the person I want to make happy doesn't even like me as a friend and just wants me around because I buy them things on command without me having to do anything with them. And I think they are talking to someone else who they do want. It feels like I'm being cheated on. But what right do I have right? I'm just there when they need me for something they need. They mention others when they do something do them. But I'm never mentioned. I don't exist. I'm just another person walking around them. Irrelevant just like the rest of the world except 3 people to them. I hate feeling like this. Yet. I keep pleasing them and get tossed away. Now I'm just ranting but idc. Sometimes I just have to do this.
I'm falling in that abyss where I feel like the person I want to make happy doesn't even like me as a friend and just wants me around because I buy them things on command without me having to do anything with them. And I think they are talking to someone else who they do want. It feels like I'm being cheated on. But what right do I have right? I'm just there when they need me for something they need. They mention others when they do something do them. But I'm never mentioned. I don't exist. I'm just another person walking around them. Irrelevant just like the rest of the world except 3 people to them. I hate feeling like this. Yet. I keep pleasing them and get tossed away. Now I'm just ranting but idc. Sometimes I just have to do this.
When you have 10000 feelings going on and you don't know how to feel. Because you feel like you'll hurt the other feelings feelings because you feel one feeling to often. I think I'm confused.