my curiosity towards you is actually killing me inside. wondering how you're doing, what you're doing, are there any new things about you, news you'd always share when we were together, do you still do the same things you used to do before. theres just so much on my mind about you and i'm not gonna reach out unless i really can't do it anymore. its so hard not having you in my life even though you were just a small part of it.