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hi guys. so i’ve been promising yous an update, not that yous care because i don’t think anyone reads my book anymore. it’s old. i just want to say sorry. my mental health has been so shit. i’ve been in and out of hospital and my meds are making me go crazy. My friends hate me because i’ve gone off the earth and am doing dumb shit. i just found out my dad has two months to live because he has a rare blood disease that’s been slowly killing him for 6 months now. i’ve been acting out a lot and i feel like an idiot. i just wish people would understand and i wouldn’t be alone. but this is wattpad not a safe place. when i act out im not thinking straight, i’ve literally lost friends from these episodes but i can’t help it. i’m getting attacked now by people that i just wish would understand. but i blame everything on me and now i’m the one suffering. i’m alone and so unhappy. i’m just gonna have to log off for probably ever because i’ve loggged off of all socials and this is the last one left. i doubt anyone is reading this but if so, just know you are loved, you are not alone, no one hates you and no matter what happens, people will always care about you. i’m sorry guys that i’ve let yous down. i’m sorry i’m not a good writer, i’m sorry i’m not a good person, i’m sorry i’m shitty. i’m a shit head and it’s my fault. i deserve this. i just wish my friends could understand.