Brenner

Ahoy ladies did you miss me I have returned 

I think mom wants to kick me out but cause I'm only 14 at the moment she can't cause like after church yesterday which was amazing btw jr or well Trey and I were making fun of each other and he made the comment "at least my d1ck isn't a sock" and mom looked confused and I told her it was a trans thing and she said "listen I have had enough tolerating you" and her and Trey started saying that I'm going against gods creation and I said "oh yeah I know that's why I don't intend on transitioning" and she said "thank god" and I was just sitting there being uncomfortable and dysphoric and like I had so much left to say that I couldn't get it out like I wanted to explain to her what my dysphoria is like and to be honest I've been transitioning manually through working out make my chest look flatter and stuff (it worked) anyway to be honest I would be happy to just have a chest binder and testosterone that's literally all I'd want anyway so I've been over thinking and that one comment "I have had enough tolerating you" makes me think that I'm just a inconvenience to her and that if I was older and had a car and stuff then she'd kick me out 

@Idontcare552 ok noted

@Idontcare552 real

I can't take criticism well my brother was doing push ups and all I said was that wide open push ups can cause injury and he started criticising me just cause I was looking out of him and he said "I went to boot camp you had to do push ups like that" (he's 15 and the boot camp was cause he didn't finish his school in the alternative school) and he talked down to me and was making fun of me and I was just trying to help and my cousin also started to make fun of me as well and I feel like a kicked puppy I swear I feel like ever since he got out of the boot camp he's been acting like a hot shot like he knows more then me and stuff and it's so damn infuriating 

I maybe addicted to the 2007 hairspray sound track 

So I might have diabetes like I have been having some symptoms including armpit discoloration and increase in thirstiness and bathroom breaks and I told mom about it and she said you don't have it so stop so I guess I'll just have to die then and on top of that Trump has killed medicare and so that means he may have killed medicaid as well and so now even if I could get help it would cost a lot so yeah I'm dead 

So I met Johnnie rains who went steady with Eddie Cochran and I just wanna say she hasn't responded to my text but I'm still hopeful that she's ok and also that I will be able to speak with her I don't know I'm just invested in this 

Thought u looked cool so i followed u 

So I'm now bedridden 
          For context I volunteered to do lumber work for my moms boyfriend (my mom and dad are divorced) but they didn't allow me to work with the saw but I did do the heavy lifting for the branches and big ass limbs with my hands and now I'm sore since we worked for a few hours on the fallen tree