@voidvader I’m so incredibly sorry you’re going through this! I lost my father when I was seven, I know how it can feel. There’s no right age or time to lose them. As I said before, please take your time and focus on yourself. If you’re struggling with thoughts of ‘it’, please reach out for help through a friend, family member, or therapist immediately. You’re not alone in this and have so much life to live for.