yippee!!!!

Also having one remote now is weird. My old tv I needed a remote for the tv to turn on and change the source, a remote for my firestick (because apparently when I was a teenager my parents decided yeah amazon come into our home) and a remote for the soundbar because my old tv’s speaker just died one day 
            
            I only got the new tv because my old one literally killed itself. Like unusable damage. But having one remote makes me feel weird. Rich in a way. Is it a lower class thing to have multiple remotes? Am I crazy? 

I just wish we had sustainable options 
            
            Like, not ‘I wish people donated more sustainable options’ because people donating what they do is phenomenal and I love you for doing so, I mean in general. I wish menstrual products were more sustainable 
            
            Obviously there’s no such thing as a one size fits all menstrual product because everyone comes in all shapes, sizes and preferences. But the options we have out there seem more catered to at the very least upper middle class citizens, leaving the non-environmentally conscious and ridiculously overpriced options as the only options for people lower middle class and below 
            
            Like, period underwear? You need access to at the very least running water and soap to clean. Not everyone has that. You’re better off getting disposable period underwear. 
            
            Same with cloth pads. 
            
            And, diva cups and the like? You need access to a stove and a pot specifically for the cup to be used with nothing else, to sanitize. Sure, you could probably use a mug and kettle but even then you have to have a mug for that specifically, you can’t just reuse diva cup mug for your tea (ew) 
            
            And I don’t even know if there’s a ‘sustainable tampon’ or if we’re just calling the diva cup that purely because they’re both insertable options 
            
            It’s not fun 
            
            

I would hope we talk a lot considering I live with him 

We talk a lot more in person I promise lol

My dad likes the bacon pancakes bird. I like Ricco. And Hamlet. My mom likes them all

Like why run away? 
            
            Are they doing it to gain a reaction and a laugh from the other guests? Because the ‘wife bad’ concept? Because if so then the relationship is over because I’m not being with someone who will put me down to get brownie points with others, and I’m not being with someone who thinks of marriage as the old ball and chain. 
            
            Are they running because they’re not ready for marriage? Because I fully understand needing more time before you get married, it’s a major commitment to someone and there are many circumstances and things I personally need to accomplish before I feel I’m ready for marriage. Additionally, the bouquet toss is just a fun tradition at weddings that doesn’t really mean anything seriously. The fact that someone catches the bouquet doesn’t automatically mean someone is next in line, especially with how many guests may be in attendance. However, running away seems like a huge reaction that isn’t appropriate and that will need to be addressed because instead of approaching with your concerns and timeline to the idea of marriage, you ran, and that’s not how a couple should resolve these situations. 
            
            Did they run because they’re not seeing themselves marry me ever? Because if that’s the case then the relationship is also over, because I’m very much in it for marriage and if our goals don’t align then it’s better to end things at that point then to let it continue and face more heartbreak because either I’m forced into the decision of not being married or they’re forced into the decision of getting married, and that leads to unhappiness and resentment.