yippee!!!!

Took a nap and suddenly it was the new year lol

Instead of a ‘traditional’ Christmas dinner (yknow turkey and all that jazz) we did homemade pizza. And then on the 26th we did Christmas breakfast (bc my sister was at her bf’s family for Christmas Day morning so we did our breakie the next day) 
          
          And we finally ate all the leftovers of that (French toast, eggs, various meats, loads of fruit (the fruit is not finished but it’s fruit so)) 
          
          But now we have even more leftovers bc two days ago we invited my sister and her bf over for roast dinner (like a roast, potatoes, gravy, stuffing, veggies) (idk why we couldn’t do that on Christmas but whatever lol) 
          
          So now we have so much leftovers from THAT (I ate a shitty diy kfc bowl thing for lunch yesterday) 
          
          And we still have one more meal from our meal kit service in the fridge to cook and I really want it bc it has sweet potato mash :( 
          
          And our meal kit service delivers the next meals tomorrow 
          
          But I also don’t want cook tonight 

Noctis the kinda guy to look at Why Do I by Set It Off featuring Hatsune Miku and skip it even though Prompto put the song on because I Don’t Love You by My Chemical Romance is next in the queue and he’d rather listen to that 

‘Ignis Scientia/Original Female Character’ an angel lost their wings 

Remembering that I was that bitch in high school who hated the way winter coats felt so never wore them and didn’t wanna heat damage my hair so wouldn’t blow dry it after a shower and would walk to school in a hoodie with wet hair during Canadian winters 

I’ve gotta say, social lives in today’s society can be super difficult. 
          
          Growing up a kid born in the early 2000s, a teenager in the 2010s, my life was ruled by the internet, I was thrown into the beginnings of social media as it is today and developed as the platforms did. 
          
          All of the expectations and stereotypes and things that we judge each other on, look down on, build up, it created a toxic way of thinking for me, about others and about myself. I felt the need to conform to the idea of the ‘stereotypical, perfect teenager’ a lot of times when I wasn’t that. I had different interests than my peers, I had different ideals, I learned I was queer and trans, later that I was neurodivergent, and that’s why I didn’t fit into the ‘mold of the perfect teenage girl’ because I wasn’t that, like others born the same sex and year as me. 
          
          And yet I still conformed, changed my personality to fit into what others wanted, repressed parts of myself so that I could have friends, and refused to allow those pieces to come up because those people stopped liking me after. It was brutal, exhausting, painful, for friendships that most of the time, I felt tired and unfulfilled in. I had only one friend until I was 13 that I never felt exhausted by or had to shape myself into someone else and I will forever be thankful for them. 
          
          At 22 I learned that the people I have the most fun with, the people I feel closest to, the people I love the most, are the people who I didn’t change for. I learned that I’m not compatible with everyone for friendship, but I found the people I was compatible with and didn’t change who I was for them to like me more. I was myself, my true authentic self, and the people who I call friends today are the people who saw me the same way I saw them. 

Tw nsfw 
          
          
          
          My favourite fanfic trope is ‘character A has either never experienced an orgasm/enjoyable sex or sexual stimulation, character B shows them that world whether they’re sexually experienced or not’ 
          
          (I have a lot of favourites this is probably number 62) 

Me: I work today, therefore I shouldn’t get too engrossed in a task otherwise I’ll lose track of time and be late 
          
          My shift: is an evening shift 

I was on TikTok and I saw someone in a comment section say (paraphrasing) ‘saying schizophrenia is real is like saying god is real bc there’s no scientific evidence for mental illness or a higher power’ 
          
          So I’m turning my phone off for the day

My parents made me get Life360 to keep an eye on me as a teenager 
          
          I keep Life360 as an adult to keep an eye on them