This person is unavailable. She committed suicide, not a joke! 06/03/22

I started reading Wattpad since April 2016, in my old acc.
I was so glad to experienced being loved here in wattpad. 
Sadly, every characters here doesn't even exist in our cruel world. I enjoy my life by reading books, I escaped reality by reading books, and I forget my sadness by reading books but then, I realized my problems in life can't disappear by reading. I was right, smiles are the biggest lies ever told. I have mental illness, I suffered from depression. Anxiety attacking me every night and I can't help myself but to cry. I'm sorry for this plan to took my own life. don't judge me,NO ONE KNOWS ABOUT MY OWN LIFE STORY.
I really don't want to end my life rn, but I have no choice. It's either die or suffer. No one understands my situation, my family always scolding and punished me and they don't have rights to stop me from killing my self. I'M SO SORRY FOR THIS.