just a warning: DO NOT READ MY BOOK ITS HORRIBLE AND HAS SEVERAL TRIGGERS IN IT AND ROMANTICISIZES SELF HARM IN A WAY THAT SHOULD NEVER HAPPEN. I WROTE IT A LONG TIME AGO NOT KNOWING THE HARM IT COULD CAUSE TO SOME PEOPLE AND SINCE I SUCK AT WATTPAD AND DONT KNOW HOW TO DELETE IT IM PUTTING THIS NOTE HERE SO YEAH DONT READ IT PLEASE IM SERIOUS OK BYE