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özledim..

please understand im trying my hardest..

sadece sevgini istemistim..bu kadar zor muydu beni sevmek?.. senden nefret ediyorum. 

deha inc. dinleyecegim hic aklima gelmezdi rxckstar sarkisi baya guzel..

bazı şeyleri kabullenmek zordur

her guzel seyin bir sonu vardır.. benim hikayemde burada baslayip burada sonlanacak.

sona yaklasıyoruz ama farkında bile degilsin/iz

dance with me
          chance on me
          im bleeding painfully
          stay for me

Since nobody is in for a while, im gonna open myself.. 
          
          I feel so soo tired
          I feel stupid
          Useless
          Uncomplete
          Insufficient
          Feels like im falling down in the darkness again..
          Im so sick..
          I cant sleep
          Cant eat
          Cant think anything 
          Always feel so dizzy 
          Blackouts
          Im so pity
          Priceless 
          Worthless
          Lame
          I didnt get to chance to live my childhood
          I have to became an adult at very young
          I know i deserved all of this pain and stupid words
          Im not a loveable person and i know that nobody is even loves me
          I deserve to be alone like this
          Life is not a fairytale that we can be happy all the time
          I know that im so cold and emotionless person
          I feel like im losing my mind
          I cant do anything right
          Everyone around me, they are so unhappy because of me
          I guess im going to far away.. For eternity
          So far.. 
          I think the moon pull me toward to himself
          Im going to became a star in the sky..
          
          Love you all, peace.
          Stay healty.
          
                                                                          ~Ceylin.
          
          

wattpad unutuldu mu ya niye bu kadar sessiz