waste-of-paint

I made another social media account to try and talk all this out and I had gotten banned by the time I woke up this morning. Crazy.

-spiderland

@waste-of-paint Understandable, it happens to the best of us. I have a lot to say as well and apologize for, as well as to clear up since there's been a lot of misinformation and miscommunication spread around. I hope our discussion can also straighten things out. Thanks for the reply. Have a good day.
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waste-of-paint

@-spiderland my account got permabanned. Will make another after work because I'm on my lunch and I have a lot to say to hopefully get this all respectfully straightened out so everyone can go on about their lives.
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waste-of-paint

I made another social media account to try and talk all this out and I had gotten banned by the time I woke up this morning. Crazy.

-spiderland

@waste-of-paint Understandable, it happens to the best of us. I have a lot to say as well and apologize for, as well as to clear up since there's been a lot of misinformation and miscommunication spread around. I hope our discussion can also straighten things out. Thanks for the reply. Have a good day.
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waste-of-paint

@-spiderland my account got permabanned. Will make another after work because I'm on my lunch and I have a lot to say to hopefully get this all respectfully straightened out so everyone can go on about their lives.
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waste-of-paint

(3/3)To make matters more complicated, the only people who really even know that this work exists in any specific detail are myself, my friend, and this third party. I have discussed my ideas in detail with both in the past. 
          
          This person had plausible deniability. Legally, there was no plagiarism. My personal feelings, however, caused me to be apprehensive of the author's intentions and feel somewhat angry. 
          
          I never intended or solicited for this person to be called out. I can not say that I had the most kind feelings or words at the time, but I had no intentions of making matters public or even discussing them. 
          
          However, another party did. I was aware. I did not stop it. In hindsight, I should have, and there would likely be significantly less bad blood between the parties involved. 
          
          To whom it may concern: you can feel about me how you want to. You don't have to like me, or believe me, or anything of the kind. But I never intended for any sort of accusation, formal or otherwise, to be levied against you. I do not appreciate the things that you have publicly said about me on a personal level and find them to be untrue, but you are entitled to your opinion and views of me. 
          
          I wish you the best in all your personal and creative endeavors. 
          
          I will continue to try and do better moving forward. There will likely not be a large amount of activity here for the foreseeable future, not that there has been. As of now, the only stories I would have an iota of interest in continuing/releasing are Vow, Pollo Asado, and an untitled trilogy devoted to Kevin Smith's View Askew-niverse.
          
          But, as it has been pointed out that I have not been the most prolific during this time, I will be putting most of my focus on working on my original works under a different name, and making my childhood dreams of authorship come true once and for all. Still at my own pace, but with a little more love and motivation this time. 
          
          Thank you all for everything. In my life, I love you more. 
          
          Mel

waste-of-paint

Having known me at the time, to that person I say… Fair enough. However, as I have not spoken to this same person since at least early November 2024, I do not feel that they have the authority to accurately pass judgement on my character at this point in time, nor do I have the same authority on their behalf. 
          
          I chose to naturally distance myself from social media after I hit what I believe was my personal rock bottom. Life went on, and got better. I was able to rekindle relationships that I had done damage to. I have made tremendous strides when it comes to my substance use. I'm not exactly straight edge, but moderation is my best friend nowadays. I'm sober more often now than I have been since I was 17. 
          
          I'm not saying I've always been the kindest person, sober or otherwise. I've got a habit of saying things out of anger and assuming the worst of people. I'm trying to work on that. I'm sure it will be a long road.
          
          That being said, I found myself upset by a difference in values that this person and I had when it came to a personal issue involving my best friend about a month ago. There were some comments made afterwards that I found distasteful and oddly timed, but, as of right now, freedom of speech is mercifully still a thing. People can say what they want, and other people are free to feel however they like about it. 
          
          I considered saying something to this person then. In the end I decided not to because it wasn't my battle to fight and I didn't want to create any more issues in an already stressful situation. 
          
          This did, however, significantly sour my feelings towards this person on a personal level. I don't know if that can be considered right or wrong. Feelings usually aren't either, in my humble opinion. 
          
          Later on, this person teased two stories on their personal account that had some similarities to original works by my friend and me, respectively. I will note that my original work in question was never even teased here.

waste-of-paint

(1/3) So, I didn't really want to say anything about this. I figured that it'd be best not to, but I also realized I'm the only one who has been name-dropped in all of this, and I'm not even active on here anymore, so I might as well clear the air on my side. 
          
          I'm Mel. Those of you who read this I assume probably know me to some degree. I was heavily on Wattpad from 2018-2021, when I was 15-19. Contrary to what my bio says, I am currently 22. 
          
          Some of the fondest memories of my teenage years were made on this site. This is where I honed my craft, back when I loved writing the most. I've met people who have been very dear to me. There were days when writing here and having people read my stories were the only bright spot. 
          
          Somehow, I managed to stay clear of drama all these years publicly. Up until now, after I've been on a three-year unspoken hiatus. 
          
          Some wild stuff has happened between 2021 and now. I'm not the same person as I was, in ways both good and bad. 
          
          I've moved. I've been in and out of college. I've worked several day jobs. I've questioned myself. I've done things I am not proud of. My writing has suffered tremendously. I have not published anything under this name since 2022, try as I might. 
          
          I've had original story ideas and fanfic ideas since then, but nothing has come to fruition. The writer's block I have had has been insane. 
          
          Last year, I had a mental breakdown that was a long time coming. I became a person I didn't like and look back on with disdain. I drove away  those I was closest to. My "therapeutic" usage of alcohol and THC became a crutch, then a problem on its own. 
          
          I've done some soul searching since then, but you can't take back what's already been said and done. I said and did some shitty things to my best friend, and we didn't talk for almost a year. Hence an accusation from a third party, who was at that time a mutual friend, that I am a "two-faced broad."

awfulstorm

Please keep the Conor Oberst fanfics alive, we have hit a drought and I love ur writing.

waste-of-paint

@awfulstorm this is awful but so true  also I'm gonna come back on here eventually but probably like 90% of my old fanfics are abandoned 
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awfulstorm

@crenshaw_punches I get it, Conor’s outgrown the whole Conor thing himself 
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crenshaw_punches

She’s my bestie, and sad to say, I think she’s outgrown the Conor thing lmao
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waste-of-paint

For real, who's still here? Does anyone remember me? What should I even keep up? Do I have a squad here???

-teensofdenial

PLEASE KEEP UP POLLO ASADO
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