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I THINK IM IN LOVE WITH ONE OF MY BEST FRIENDS HELL ME PLS

It still amazes me how someone can be so important to you when the friendship began with "bro" 

i am so gay but if chuuya nakahara asked me to peg him i would, no hesitation. 

BRO I'M SO PROUD OF YOU. YOU'RE ABSOLUTELY AWESOME. THANK YOU FOR BEING MY FRIEND AND BRO. I LOVE YOU MWAH. 

update: i have short pink hair, heavy ass eyeliner and i’m queer as hell. also i go by any pronouns now so that’s cool. gonna go back to analyzing the hell out of minecraft role play. hope everyone’s doing well < 3

heyo, here for my monthly log on thing i suppose. 
          i’m dying my hair pink tomorrow and cutting it short which is scary because i’ve had long brown hair my entire life. i also think i’m pansexual so that’s cool. yeah that’s all. hope everyone’s doing well : )

yes hello hello i’m venting again because i don’t really know where else to go. so. yeah haha. don’t feel like u need to read : )
          
          !possible tw! 
          
          this is the internet so i can think aloud, right? yeah, maybe, anyway, i think i’m not straight, but like, it’s confusing cos i’ve never really felt like this before, i don’t think, so what changed? am i doing something subconsciously on purpose? idk, hurts my head to think about.  probably gonna dye and cut my hair soon, really feeling uncomfy in ma own skin again so, probably time for a change. what else, oh yeah. i have a notebook, you see, and it’s pretty much just an itinerary of my worst moments and darkest thoughts and the other day i read through some of them. it was kinda scary to read cos like, i wrote down a lot of intrusive thoughts i’ve had and self deprecating thoughts and dysphoria i felt and there were dates on every page and it dates back till like, early 2018. kinda sad to think about i’ve lost nearly 5 years of my childhood to my fûcked up head. and i’m in high school right, so i have to start looking at universities and it’s so gosh dang stressful because i didn’t do shit about or for them for the longest time. in all honesty i didn’t think i’d make it this far. i know that’s a sad and scary thought but i feel like it’s the only one that remotely describes the way my thought process has been working lately. i don’t know what i’m doing. i shouldn’t be posting my pathetic problems to the internet but i’m selfish and a narcissist so here. have at it wattpad, criticize me, i promise i can take it : )

Bro you are fabulouis 

i am, once again, plotting another novel i’ll never write
          
          
          sigh

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