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hey yall im back at it again for my 6 month update to you about how im doing and that i truly did not abandon you. im still 15, and we’re halfway through 2021. a few weeks after the post i made back in december 2020, i started dating my current girlfriend on January 1st. we’re very happy :D 
          Ive started drivers training and its going okay. it feels like a lecture for 2 hours though it kinda sucks. my mental health has been pretty rocky? i dont know much about my emotions lmao. i just know im very draining so im sorry if this post seems monotone-ish.
           i also came out to my mom, on accident. she found some pictures of me and my girlfriend kissing so. she was half supportive but shes still pushing for the fact that ill date a man. it kinda sucks but whatever. nothin i can do about it and believe me ive tried. 
          i think that about sums up the past 6 months. i might be going to Washington for a few weeks sometime in July? i dont know it depends on if i decide to go or not. but anyways
          I hope you all are doing okay, mentally physically and emotionally. i wish you all the best and ill see you in about 6 months :D or maybe less. who knows. anyways i love you all <33 stay safe loves

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hello everyone! its been a hot minute. I'll do a quick update on myself and how the past couple months have been.
          
          Nearly the end of this horrid year and I'm very excited. My marching season finished a while back and it was like half good and half bad, half bad cause i had to see my ex and my seniors are graduating but half good cause we got to go to football games and preform and such. uhh mentally im kinda like, not good.
          incoming trigger warning!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
          
          
          
          
          
          
          
          
          
          i made a mistake back in October which was cutting myself in various places. I have since not done it but every now and again i have the urge to break my snow globes and cut myself. 
          anyways enough of that.
          im 15! no drivers permit yet but thats cause they're not taking any new people for classes right now which sucks. my room got redesigned, which was way better for my mental health since i had so much attachment to my ex in my old room. I'm relieved to have a somewhat fresh start. 
          new interests, or rather refound interest, would be minecraft and minecraft youtubers/streamers. they honestly make me really happy in this hell hole of a world. Also wattpad being monetized is the worst thing and paying for stories???????? aw hell no. i would never make yall do that dont worry.
          
          anyways, please tell me about you and how you've been!! i would really like to know :) 
          i still love all of yall dont worry. all of you hold a special place in my heart. i hope you've been doing well and if you havent, you can always come to talk to me :)
          kocham ciebie (i love you) <3333
          ~Maya

you guys probably havent seen that im alive cause i forgot to annouce to my followers so, check out the whole ass paragraph below this :)

hello everyone! it has been a while. like, a while. and i will explain everything rn!! 
          
          so basically after a while two ish years ago i deleted wattpad. it was no longer something i enjoyed doing and it just felt like a chore. and of course i still write on my own time for funsies but thats basically it. i will attempt to get back into a writing mood just for lovelies cause i miss yall  but here are some updates from the past year or two that ive been gone!
          so im turning 15 this year! which is crazy and im getting my permit soon which means ill be able to drive and lord i am not ready. i moved schools after 7th grade and now i have a a new group of friends. i do marching band! i have figured out myself to a certain extent and i can tell you this: i am pansexual! i have anxiety, tho i havent been medicated for it because my mom doesnt want me to, and i think i like being single a lot better than being taken (sometimes). i had a boyfriend for a while but we broke up like 2 months ago. it sucked but im okay now! im doing better mentally now than when i was with him. tbh he was an ass anyways so im not feeling horrible about myself anymore. tho i think ive developed a crush on my best friend so thats cool. and shes in a relationship so like :/// it sucks but ill deal. i got a lot more into anime since the last time i was logged into this account. uhh and i have a ton of manga too. 
          
          so thats all for now!! i will try to keep you guys updated on what i will be doing and if/when i will be writing again. 
          
          thank you for sticking around i love you all. 
          ~Maya <3

Hi, I just want to tell you that I’m in love with your story lattes and croissants! It’s incredible and I do hope you ever start writing it again!
          x angel

↬︎ A LETTER TO YOU! 
          
          hi babe! i just wanted to remind you that you are amazing and beautiful! you are meant to be here and have no reason to doubt that. you deserve all the love and uwu’s in the world! remember that there is always 3 more reasons to be happy then to be sad. stay strong. spread love. if you ever need someone my messages are always open! 
          
                                                  ~ i love you! 
                                                              gabbie ღ︎︎
          

yall i-
          
          im a bad person
          
          but uh while i was in a bleh mode
          
          i made a poem kinda explaining how i feel when i say ‘im scared’
          
          anyways here
          
          
          “I’m scared” i say for eighth time that day
          they laugh it off
          and respond back with
          “of what? theres nothing to be scared of”
          but what they dont know 
          is that I’m scared of everything 
          I’m scared of myself
          scared of the noises in the background
          scared of you leaving
          I’m scared of so many things
          but all i answer with is
          “nothing important”
          so they shove it aside
          pretend that small conversation 
          never happened
          and they continue on with their conversations
          while i sit there
          scared out of my mind
          not knowing what to do
          or how to express it
          but it doesn’t matter 
          its nothing important 
          because being scared
          is just another topic
          
          ~Maya Mucha
          
          anyways im writing so ill be updating soon
          
          
          

i forgot i even had this app i-
          
          im so sorry ill try to get something in by monday
          
          marching band started up so my schedule is now a little more full than it used to be
          
          i swear ill get something in soon 
          
          im so so sorry!!!

i think my next update will be Monday
          
          i swear ill plan a schedule for summer. 
          
          babysitting has been keeping me busy and im trying to keep my depression depression in check
          
          i love you all
          
          i hope your day is going well ^^