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holy shit. um i never thought i would write this. you were/are the kindest person on this planet and although i never met you i always imagined i would. i would always smile when you posted on youtube. your laugh was so fucking contagious. when i found out you died i didn’t believe it or rather i didn’t want to believe it. i was googling for 15 minutes before i realized i would never meet you, hug you, or experience your kindness. you were the first person i ever REALLY lost. and i’m jealous of the people who knew you/met you, because they have those memories of you. i’m so fucking mad you got in that car. so fucking mad. but i’m starting to come to terms with you being gone but i’m scared of that. i think the hardest/scariest part of losing someone is accepting the fact that they’re gone. realizing that i will never see again smile or laugh again. realizing that i will never meet you and experience your kindness and love and your friendship. holy shit this hurts. and ik i’m writing this late but i needed to be alone to do this. you being taken from us makes me realize how fragile life is. and you make me want to be a better person. you make me want to be an “oh well” girl rather than a “what if” girl. i’ve always said “let’s find out” when someone asks me something and i think that the Corey La Barrie in me and i’m glad to have that. i’m thinking of trying out for the voice, and if i do it will be for/because of you. Corey La Barrie, i will forever miss you and love you. i will make sure your legend lives on. i will tell my future kids and grand kids about you. Corey La Barrie you were and will always remain appreciated. i love you and miss you. Corey La Barrie.