wecanbediscreet

guys im back, new book coming!!!! <3

wecanbediscreet

i know this isn’t what you guys want to hear but if i’m going to write more, i’m probably gonna make a new book and not finish my other ones! sorry!!! love you all mwa mwa

bilsbluehair

girl its okayyy your writing is amazing anyway we’ll be satisfied with whatever your willing to give us
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wecanbediscreet

its almost my birthday!! i decided to log back on here and update you guys a little bit, ive been writing poetry, trying to get my spark back in writing.
          
          i don’t write the way i used to.
          not because i don’t want to,
          but because something feels missing.
          
          there was a time when words showed up on their own.
          i didn’t have to chase them.
          they just arrived,
          soft and sudden,
          like they knew where to find me.
          
          now i sit with open notes,
          a blinking cursor,
          and too much silence.
          i try to force meaning
          out of tired thoughts
          and half-finished feelings.
          
          i keep thinking it’s my fault.
          that i waited too long,
          that i let myself get distracted,
          that i grew out of the part of me
          that knew how to say things simply.
          
          writing feels heavier now.
          not hard.
          just slow.
          like walking through water
          instead of air.
          
          i miss trusting my own voice.
          i miss not overthinking every line.
          i miss when creating felt private,
          before it turned into something i measured,
          something i compared,
          something i judged.
          
          sometimes i wonder
          if i changed too much.
          if i became quieter inside.
          if i learned how to hold things in
          instead of letting them spill onto the page.
          
          but i still come back.
          even when it hurts.
          even when nothing sounds right.
          because part of me isn’t ready to let go.
          
          maybe the spark isn’t gone.
          maybe it’s just tired.
          and maybe being tired
          doesn’t mean being empty.
          

bilsbluehair

that’s okay!! sometimes things change and you lose interest in certain hobbies, but you can do this and you can get your spark back! i tend to feel similar to this so i understand what you mean, but we miss you and can’t wait to see you join us again!
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wecanbediscreet

yeah guyssssss sorry to say this but there’s prolly not gonna be any more writing from me 

bilsbluehair

@wecanbediscreet that’s okay, we’ll miss you, stay safe and take care of yourself 
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