Leeyumshair

UR @ IS JUST *chef's kiss*

HELLO

Wow i love getting oil changes theyre so uncomfortable 

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Im just being dramatic in fact. Im only at it again as an addict with a pen

Im such a shit friend

Some people are so strong but that’s not me. It’s just not. I’m weak of mind. Strong of heart, maybe, but that doesn’t do much when you’ve reached a stalemate with your demons

I am just so convinced of my inabilities that im too scared to even try. I had a good job but i quit it cause i just gave up. Thats it. I said to myself, this is bad for my mental health. It was, sure, but here i am months later sitting on my ass. Im no good for myself, but nobody cares. Theyve all got their own shit to deal with. I need someone to pick me up and tell me what to do. Hold my hand. But nobody will do that thats not how things work but here i am, hoping still

I’ve been talking to myself a lot recently. Like pretending im on some talk show, being all confident and cool. And talking about how i got to these great achievements. In this dialogue i always talk about how i used to have no self confidence. Like didn’t believe in myself at all. And ive just realized that this wasnt the past. Ive let myself float by doing nothing the past 5 months. No job, no school, literally just lying in my own shit, so i dont have to face the facts. I dont believe in myself. I feel like ill fail at everything i ever do. I havent even fu king graduated hs yet. All i have to do is these final tests for the credits im missing then ill be done. But i havent. I cant. Im a fucking failure and its apl self induced

I feel so alone. There’s so many people but nobody’s listening. I suppose they don’t owe it to me, but still. It’s awful to feel like there’s no one there. Like you’re just going crazy and you cant even talk about it. Cause there’s nobody to talk to