i love you<3

I just want to be loved.

have a holly-jolly christmas<3

stay strong, love you forever and ever
          goodbye

I won't be active here for a while.
          Right now I need to focus on school I little more.
          And the main reason is that I'm in a really bad place mentally.
          It's not important at all thought. I can't say when I'm coming back. Probably after the winter break.
          Have a good holiday and happy new years!
          I love you! <3
          ~Anna

Im so fucking mad! I can’t even put it in words… So I was having a decent day and like 10 minutes ago I decide to call my “best friend” to talk a little. And she was in a really sassy mood and was just really rude. If you were reading my old status you know that my best friend is a pretty bitchy person. She’s the “oh I’m never wrong, I’m always right. Im the most smartest person the goddamn world and I’m everything.”. And I can’t even talk to her anymore, only if she is in a good mood. Which is rare. And you could say that “what if she’s struggling and that’s the reason for her behavior?”. I always ask her if she’s alright, I even asked when a called her.
          I love you<3

It’s bad again. It was so good for a little while, but everything got bad again. I’m having thought’s about ending my life again, I know I could never do it. But I’m afraid that one day I’m going to get so overwhelmed that I won’t have any other options. I’m going to be honest, I don’t like my life. I really don’t. Know if I think about it maybe saying goodbye forever would be the best option. Everyone around me thinks I’m just lazy and I only feel sorry for myself. Maybe I do, I’m just sorry that I fucked up my life so bad that I can’t fix it anymore. I want peace. I talked to my parents and a therapist a few weeks ago and everyone just told me to suck it up. But nobody tried to help, it’s easy to say. I’m nobody’s comfort person, or an important person. Nobody knows what’s my favorite flower, favorite season, favorite color. Nobody wants to know what kind of movies I like, where do I want to go one day. I feel like everyone around me is moving forward, but I’m just standing still. And nobody looks to the side or gives me something to go forward to. I should be there for myself, but believe me. Nobody hates me, annoys me as much as myself. Ily

A boy in my class called me fat and annoying today. And I ate sooo much through the day… I hate that I can never be in the middle. Im either too loud or too quiet. I either eat so much or nothing. Never in the middle…
          I love you<3

fight for yourself. I myself have two sons who have autism, but I go with them after various specialists. your parents should stop ignoring your problems, be they health or peer problems. they should just be there for you and help in the way they can

One of my friends were feeling depressed and I wrote them a paragraph….Paragraph my ass, so I wrote them a goddamn book to cheer them up and they left me on seen for half a day. And now they send me a like sticker… :)

Hello everyone! Before I say anything I just want to clarify that I’m not feeling sorry for myself and I’m not trying to fish for pity. Thank you for understanding.
          
          I realized how much I hate my life.
          I hate everything about it, there’s not one thing that gets me excited, nothing.
          Believe me, I so desperately tried to find something. But nothing.
          I spend my whole summer on it, still nothing.
          I feel overwhelmed and empty at the same time.
          School, future, parents, friends, past, memories, eating disorder.
          Like there’s so much going on, but I feel like they go on every day. Everyday is the same.
          And nobody cares.
          
          So what do I have?
          
          Nothing.