iwascrazyonce

no bc no matter how hard I tried I still could not fall asleep. 
          and now here we are.
          at three in the morning.

death is upon me. I'm suffering many sicknesses (not actually that serious) and I have to take like six or more pills a day and I feel like absolute dog shit. which is very lovely :)

I'm pretty sure I need help....today, for instance, I was in a very crowded area and felt like puking and sobbing. Luckily, sometimes, I have very good composure and kept it away. But I started panicking still and when i panic i like pick at my nails or scratch like itching scratch at my arm and shake my leg which is not very fun haha...and I still cry thinking abt it. I've tried my best to tell my mom but it's really hard, I don't even know how to really explain all this :/ I don't know why I freak out like this and I really just wanna help it but I can't, or at least don't know how to. Should I like go see a counselor or something??? Idk man I just really hate it... :/. I hope your guys day went well though, if not I hope tomorrow does<3

why does this one dude at my school have to be so freaking attractive-

hot bitches procrasinate

what should I write...like I need some fanfic ideas cause I'm bored...

listen, I'm all for all sorts of people getting a chance to audition for my school's play, but tell me, if I'm an undertsudy and I actually acted the performance, how is it the man who doesn't do his work in theater class, slacks off, read his monologue and all the cold reads in a dead-pan voice..how does he get in the main cast list..is that all I needed to do??? Oh well, at least he gets a chance at this because if he auditioned it means he wanted to do it

how am I awake right now

pov: you're working on an assignment you had all summer to do and now it's past due and you're trying to finish it all in one night.

not kidding when I say I feel dead.