@wh00ps-
nvm my meal plan, last time i ate was yesterday, next time i'm gonna eat is on fucking sunday.
thursday: max 500
friday: 0
saturday: 0
sunday: 0
monday: max 500
i hate myself so much and you don't make it any better
fuck i really do feel like killing myself
but not yet, not yet honey :( you just need to,, lose it again.
ffs how did i manage to just gain 2kgs lmao i'm the most disgusting pig on earth, i really just wanna kms rn, but okay, i'm just gonna continue b/p, bc i need to fucking eat rn, i cANG FUCKING STIP WHY AM I SUCH A DISAPPOINMENT I WANNA CUT INRO MY FICKING WRISTS
i wanna cut or burn myself, maybe both omg
i wanna scratch my skin bloody, all over my face, stomach, legs — cut into my skin until everything's covered in blood, i wanna rip out my hair, smash my head against the wall, punch myself everywhere
ah
i feel like b/p
like fr, i wanna fucking eat and vomit the shit outta me, starving ain't it rn, i need to feel more pain
i guess i'm gonna b/p now, idk, even though i'm gonna gain everything back idfc rn
i'm a fat fuck lmao, just gonna throw up today and take laxatives tmr, but this time really
my bestie's here and we're having a sleepover which means extreme stress for me, since she — of course — brought snacks etc., which i am ✨ not ✨ going to eat
also i'm very sad bc of my ex out of sudden, i guess it's bc i gained some weight nd stuff + can't weigh myself tomorrow, which also stresses shit outta me,, i needa cry but i can't hEh
i literally wanna starve myself to death
i'd like to eat but i'm mentally exhausted af, my mum's pissing me off so much, my friends aren't there and idfk,
but pain means starving and i'm down for it, makes me feel alive at some point
gained 300g, but idfc rn, gonna lose it anyway