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Inhale. Exhale. Deep breaths. 
          
          1. Inhale. 2. Exhale. 3. Inhale. 4. Exhale. Deep long breaths. 
          
          You are fine. You are okay. You are strong. 
          
          5. Inhale 6. Exhale. 
          
          Hold on. Just a little bit more, angel. Please ... Please ...
          
          7. Inhale 8. Exhale
          
          Keep holding on. Never let go no matter what. 
          
          9. Inhale 10. Exhale
          
          You are fine. You are okay. You are strong. 
          
          Just please!
          
          Please ... Please ... Hold on. Don't ever give up.
          
          ...
          
          F*ck!
          
          F*ck!
          
          F*ck!
          
          F*ck!
          
          It hurts. It hurts so f*cking much! 
          
          Why the f*ck does it hurt so much? Why? Why the f*ck do I feel this way?
          
          Just. Why? 
          
          Why is it so hard?
          
          ...
          
          I just want to stop disappointing my parents.
          
          I just want to start eating without feeling the need to shove down my fingers down my throat after.
          
          I just want to look in the mirror without feeling guilt and shame.
          
          I just want to be able to say confidently that I'm fine.
          
          I just want to stop crying alone so much.
          
          I just want to know how it feels to be loved and cared for.
          
          I just want to stop hurting myself.
          
          I just want to know how it feels to be normal.
          
          I just want to be happy.
          
          ...
          
          Why ... Why the f*ck is it so hard to be happy?
          
          ...
          
          Because f*ck it! I'm just tired! 
          
          ...
          
          I'm so tired of surviving - of thriving.
          
          ...
          
          And I just don't know if I could hold on a little bit longer.
          
          
          
          
          
          
          
          
          
          
          
          ,
          
          
          

Thank you for the follow.

My ...  sanctuary :)

Walking through hell with a smile :)

"When you feel like you just wanna give in and let go."

Why are we so scared of losing everything when in the end we're all going to die and all of those things won't even matter?

When life sucks so much and you can't even tell how you feel. You just shut up, smile, and pretend everything is fine. And all wanna do is sleep forever.

Hi im a follower of yours would love to ask a favor can you check out my works if you do vote and comment I will return the love :) !it would mean alot if you do thank you ❤

Thanks so much for following me! Your support means a lot for me and I hope I can make it worth your time.
          Happy reading :)
          (Also, not sure if you've watched Bollywood movies, but my friends introduced me to "Yeh Jawaani Hai Deewani" and I loved it)

hi my names larissa thanks for following and voting if you dont mind can you check out the first chapter of my story 'alpha black' its a new book would mean alot if you gave it a shot!vote and comment if you do give it a shot.Thank you. :)Spread the word about my book?Help me reach my goal thanks again much love larissa~